22 November, 2015
Oh my gosh, hi. I have been wanting to update but, you know, I couldn't really find time to. Since I couldn't sleep now (must've been the tea) so I've decided that I should write this right now or I will just drag this till forever haha.
So, when was the last time I even updated? Yes, that was during sem break and yes, I am that busy. I don't know what have I gained after 8 months of college except weight, two shades of serious exhaustion and also the skills to study for an assessment two hours before the test (I pretty much do that for every test). As you can see from my post on Instagram the caption explained it all:
"We're officially over 😊😊 Thanks for 7 months of mentally abusive, high maintenance and stressful relationship and your unending bullshit. Good riddance Sam (aka self-abuse matriculation). Adios."
Basically, we have at least one assignment to hand in or assessment to sit for every week, and I don't recall plenty of days where I can actually sit and rest because once a huge task is over, we have to focus on another freaking task. There's no time to lose no time to chill man. That's sam for you. But the thing is you can't say it's hard either, I suppose it's very mild in comparison with A levels or whatsoever it's just the time allocated and the workload that wears you out, so I don't think I've actually learnt all that much throughout these months. And the worse thing is, FINALS ARE SO DIFFERENT FROM YOUR USUAL TESTS IT SCARES THE SHIT OUT OF YOU. It's like they make you spend so much time on your 70%, then all of a sudden one month before finals, BOOM, this is the real thing bitches. If you rate usual tests as level 10, finals would be a level 100. The system is really shitty if you asked me, us spending so much time on the internal assessments and suddenly introducing us all these hardcore tough shit one month before finals, so can I assume the remaining 30% isn't all that significant, after all? I did terribly for finals, alright. But at least I finished 70% of sam so I don't feel that uneasy for doing terribly (I doubt I would ever feel uneasy, for that chill of an attitude I've grown to possess), but fingers crossed, results will be out in less than a month from now, I really hope I did well and did not let my parents down. But I hold little hopes that my atar score is sufficient to apply for any scholarships or whatsoever since their requirements are so high for sam students.
So, after all the pre u's and stuff we're back to square one. What course? I have no idea. All the things I really liked have been crossed out by reality, according to mama. And we've come across architecture, clinical psychology, speech therapy and everything but all of those are all out because of some reasons, and engineering which is supposed to be my decision is out as well because I despise specialist maths and everything that has to do with it (so much for being gung-ho about chemical engineering, for crying out loud). And there it lies accounting... the apple of every parent's eyes (with the claim that we will be safest in his hands) and the loyal one who has been asking for permission to enter my life whom I brutally rejected by claiming him to be a bore, is waving his hands at me, welcoming me with opening arms once again. I guess I finally said yes to him. Though I have ABSOLUTELY, NO, ANY SINGLE experience about accounting at all, nor do I know if it interests me or not. Shit, this sounds more and more like an arranged marriage. (But arranged marriages work, usually) (So we better work, too) All I know is I'm too naive to be interested in all those investment and fund shit and my mum said it will not be a problem for me to pick up the subject. Oh well, we don't know that. But I guess I'm pretty adaptable so I REALLY HOPE it will be okay for me while a lot of others probably had experiences since high school or at least college. So I guess I'm the newly wed wife that has to learn all about the hubby while all the others are already old couples with Mr.Accounting.
Since finals are finally over, I guess I could go back to my carefree days where I can watch endless movies and animes and bake to my baking and drawing days oh gosh. Watched a few tsunami of tears-inducing movies recently which gave me a few days of thinking to do, and I decided to go church camp as well. Just got to know the theme of our banquet night today, and oh, how costume making excites me omg. I guess I'm going to start making it real soon, so do stay tuned to my updates oh gosh I really wanna know if the costume succeeds or not.
That's all for today and it's 4 a.m. now and there's church tomorrow. I hope I don't yawn every 10 seconds tomorrow??
Love all of you non-existent readers.
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